I am not a very patient person. Shocking, I know!! I like things to happen quickly and I am not very patient. We travel to Disney World during the off season so we don’t have to stand in line. I tend to jump into new things at 150mph and I prefer for everyone else to keep up with me. But recently, God has been working with me on patience. Actually, He probably laughs at the word “recently.” More accurately, recently I started listening!!
I am sure there are a bunch of clichés we can think of here. — All good things come to those who wait. — A bird in the hand is worth two in a bush. But I have to disagree there because I would really prefer to have all three! But clichés aside, there is truth in the need to sometimes wait.
I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” – Lamentations 3:24
To wait for it to be God’s time. Sometimes, we just need to be still and listen. Still – isn’t really my strong suit. I think a burning bush would catch my attention pretty quick though. My current struggle with patience comes from a new business venture where I want to grow things at an extreme rate and obstacles arise to slow things down. I began studying the idea of Why we work and how to follow God’s path in our work. I met with a local spiritual father and watched his online teachings and he asked the question, “Is there Grace in what you do?” I did not comprehend exactly and he clarified, “Does your work feel like toiling?” When there is Grace, work does not feel like work. His online training emphasized that we do not work to pay bills. Who is our provision? God will provide for our needs if we trust in Him, so why do we work? His answer – we work to further the Kingdom of God.
Last night I asked myself, “How does what I am doing now further the Kingdom of God?” And I heard the answer, “It is not the thing that you do, it is the people that you see.” And as Jay and I talked through this the next day, he further helped me see it was about the relationships I could build and the people I could touch. My new venture provides me opportunities to support and touch so many people. And it has already brought me amazing support myself through some beautiful friendships.
So I read verses on success and work and waiting and God’s plans. And I listened more to teachings online and realized one of my huge failings. I try to do things my way and in my time. And then when they are successful, I am stealing God’s glory. So, I will pray and falter and get back up and pray some more and do this thing God’s way. And the glory goes to Him when it is time for it to move to the next level. I will just BE. Be available, be open, be serving, be supporting, be leading, be listening. Always listening.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. – Matthew 6:33